Dear Robin...
"It's one thing not to want something, it's another to be told you can't have it."
Robin Scherbatsky, the woman that I adored in the first few seasons of the show, the non-chalant essence of the character, her casual approach to things, a cool and friendly vibe and the gorgeous gorgeous gorgeous looks! Everything struck me and I was in absolute awe of the character! Until...the character started to become a little imperfect.. and yes I am guilty for this!
Robin started to become a confusing and messed up character in the later seasons of the show, she started to become confused between whether she wants a commitment or whether she wants to stay alone forever.. It became annoying to watch her break Ted's heart repeatedly, and even Barney's.. Felt like 'what's this girl doing, how does she not know what she wants?'
When Ted went back to her at the end of the show, I was super pissed off because I believed she didn't deserve him, or his love and care towards her. It's actually not about Ted or Barney, it's about choosing the right for yourself. While watching those episodes I felt "Is it so difficult to realize what's right for us?" Now that I look back I realize, it is, infact difficult. Sometimes it absolutely is and the people around you totally see what's right for you but you just can't decide! And that's okay, because everyone learns things at different time intervals, everyone is allowed to evolve at their own pace, there's no race!
I have always been saying, "Robin was annoying in the later seasons". Although if I am being completely honest to myself, I did not hate her for being confused. The fact of the matter is that I relate to her confusion, to her dilemma, to her messed up parts, I relate to her when she says "I don't know what I want". Before making a choice between anything in life right from 'what to eat today' to 'what my dream job is', everything has been a head scratching decision for me always. There are so many options around you regarding everything and how can you not mess up? How can you always choose the right thing? It's impossible to keep being right, there have to be a few 'wrong picks' before you can realize what the 'right picks' for you are!
I have always felt that Robin was a heartbroken character, beneath those laughs, beneath that 'cool Robin' image, there was a Robin that always craved love even though she had always been pushing it away. Probably the only reason why she pushed it away was because it didn't feel familiar to her, because she felt something totally new and couldn't realize that's what she wanted. And by the time she realized, it was too late. But luckily for her, the show ended up giving her what she wanted!
Yes she hurt a lot of people, yes she made the wrong choices, yes she was an indecisive and complex character to understand, yes she might have seemed irritating at times in the show, yes sometimes it did feel like she didn't deserve the happy end she got. But I have come to the acceptance that it was wrong of me to think that way. It was wrong of me to feel she didn't deserve the happy ending just because she didn't know what she wanted in the past and messed up a few things, or broke people's hearts unintentionally. That's not her identity. Her identity is and will always be the cool Robin, the Robin who knew how to use guns and the Robin who could easily be friends with anybody, the Robin who kept pursuing the career she wanted no matter how many failures she saw, the Robin who dared to choose whatever she wanted for herself, the Robin who was happy with her own self and loved to be her own muse, the Robin who was independent and strong, and the Robin who always carried herself like a queen!
Thankyou for reading :)
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